Yes, it's finally. Labels: canada, goodbye, hours, I LIKE :D, i'llMISSyou, math, runaway maid, thankyous, today, yesterday
I simply can't resist the bloody temptation to at least just. BLOG! :D Labels: canada, i'llMISSyou
(I know I'm not supposed to be blogging, but anyway.) Still trying even when I'm being disappointed again & again. I'm always trying to just make you happy. Why is it that you just just have to find fault with every single damn thing I do? If you think the world only revolves around you, if you think you're the only person ALWAYS correct, then whatever. If you think violence's gonna solve everything. If you think your hand smacking me once in a while just to shut me up, then you better think again. If you think I'm the rude one, fine I did apologise and if you went on again when I told you to reflect upon yourself, you'd better look at yourself first. I respect you, I did and I still do. If it's so, too freaking wrong to voice out what I'm thinking, then I don't know what to do anymore. & I'd miss many people. Really. ): I'd miss those messages. D: Okay people, please keep the tags coming! Please keep the SMSes coming! I'd be dreadfully homesick!! Like I said, the messages would be the NORMAL charges, really. Since it's a local phone. I know I sound like I'm exaggerating but this' the furthest & longest holiday I'm ever gonna have. I'll blog, okay. (: I will. :D I'll come on to MSN. YAY. Okay wait but now my sister has difficulty accessing MSN on her laptop. :S Nvm. Hopefully, by the time I get things should be fine. I'm gonna miss everyone!!!!!!!! I haven't packed, no. I don't even know which luggage I'm bringing. I simply wrote a Things To Bring To Canada list. I'm planning to start tonight. But I have to finish my And Monday, MATHS LESSON. Dental appointment. And more shit. Okay I'll just find the time, I will. I must anyway. Oh yeah. sarah; YAY YES 2/2 :D WOOHOO. izyAn; Tu ah that SLOW girl hahaha. XD peishi; YAY yes!! :D Yaaaay. lw2; YESSSSS I'll miss you omg I will D: argh. Huda; Thanks lady!! (: I will but I'll be homesick anyhoots. :/ - Tooooooodles. Kau buatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi. Labels: canada, enough, i'll end everything, i'llMISSyou, jiwang, replies to tags, short of time, tired
We did surveys in the Mac Lab today. & obviously camwhoring was part of it! :P I LOVE THE PICS! :D
First of all! I'll start with WEDNESDAY first, please! :D ANYWAY! IT'S SHAMINI'S BIRTHDAY! YAAAAAY SHAMINI!! :D LOVES! HAHA YOU CRAZY SENIOR. In primary & secondary school! Always pretend to be angry & very sporting aaaah! :) YAY. I'll missss you tons yo!!! :D SOMEONE'S LEGAL SEY. XD Yep and I'm home now, I'm SO TIRED. Anyway this is for TOMORROW. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINAH I LOVE YOU. Yay I miss you yeaaaaaah and really (x1000000) miss you!! Hur I admitted that heh -.- Anyway yes you're legal. LOVES! (This' a short wish since you won't visit my blog anyway!) BYE! I saw. Labels: birthday, canada, choir, fatigue, fun after so long, holidays ain't holidays, I LIKE :D, i need dia, tags replies, two more days, twotwo spirit
Labels: exam results, high/ism, I LIKE :D, resolutions, shopping, talentime
Labels: DISAPPOINTMENT, exam results, pictures, tears and lies
[X] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you. Labels: dia, I LIKE :D, nervousness, randomity, results, retarded test
Finally.
Today.
Those countdowns, from 50 days, 40. 20. Now, zero.
It's not even a day.
It's a matter of hours now.
Like, 4 hours.
I'm feeling feeling-less.
Partly because my freakin' flu is pissing me off. It gets tiring to sneeze every ten seconds. And, my itchy eyes. How the hell am I going to stay still with my mouth wide open at the dentist later? Oh, speaking of which, is in 30 minutes; that appointment.
You can say I've packed. Okay, technically, mostly. Like 95%. I'm not done with the nitty-gritty items. Such as my mp4 which I have stupidly left in Dad's car; and I have not charged it. -.- The money! The pounds, Mom hasn't passed it to me yet. Shoes. You know, soap, shampoo, toothbrush. Those kinda items. Yeeeeep. Nevermind, I still have what? Yes, 4 hours. That's.
A lot. :D
I'm currently sleepy and spouting thrash so bear with me or just exit this window.
But no I can't sleep since there's a dental appointment in 26 minutes. And no, I don't want any coffee. Not caffeine, now. Later. Or something. Okay at night, I wanna stay awake to have fun with the in-flight entertainment. Actually come to think of it, I'd have more than sufficient time. With like 23 hours of flight hahaha! Yay, the individual screen with games & movies BETTER be good. (: Keep me entertained. & yeah I hope I won't end up beside a smoker. Oh gosh, I'd die I tell you. Seriously. Remember Huda, the Czech trip? I'm so sorry we exchanged places!
Anyway, that's how I got my flu. From some smoker beside me I didn't notice and the smoke engulfed me. GAHA. My nose's somehow ALLERGIC (I'd like to think of it that way) to nicotine, tar blabla thus, the irritating flu.
Here's an update of yesterday:
Attended Cikgu Jamaliah's daughter's wedding! & Diyanah's brother's wedding. :D Food were delicious, I suddenly couldn't wait for my brother's. :P
Of today!:
I was awakened by Mom's voice who was waking my brother up; Wake up, wake up, eh the maid ran away. I was five steps below and a level away but I could hear it loud and clear. My brother & I immediately woke up and went What happened, what happened? Yadayada. Don't ask me for details. She just packed up and left, in the morning. Didn't even make breakfast, hmph. At least cook some water or something. My parents were working today and there wasn't breakfast for anyone. (Anyway she's back now. Hah! Agent got her back here.)
Left for school at 0845. Math lessons start at 1000. I took forty minutes to get to school. I took the wrong bus. -.- More like, went to the wrong bus stop, expecting another bus. Haha! But at least, still the bus that goes to AMK.
Math was HUH? at first, Adlyn couldn't stop making me laugh. Haha everytime I sneezed she'd be like, Bising ah! & I'd laugh, gahaha. We learnt the Phytogarous? (WHATEVER, SPELLING?) Theorem! I got it absorbed after a whole hour. HAHA. Eh at least I managed to complete the 9 questions. (: Thanks Lyn!
Lunched at Macs with 'em after school. Nothing much. Thanks anyway, dudettes. (:
Got home, discovered I HADDDD to go to the library, by hook or by crook. I simply can't survive without books there. & I neeeeeed to complete the English reviews. Okay basically, I JUST NEED BOOKS. Get the idea? (:
I'm once again, SLOWWWW. I just discovered Hougang Mall has Cheng San Library. I like! Maaany books. :D Yay, and it's nearer than Sengkang's. Borrowed only 4 books, though. I don't think my handcarry allowed any more than that.
Yeap, so perhaps later I'll blog in the airport? While waiting for the plane, that area. Or, just in Canada herself, which would be on Wednesday! (: & that is if I recover slightly from the jet lag. I'm so gonna be horribly horribly HORRIBLY. Jet lagged. Gaaaaah. :D
It's 15 minutes now. Don't wanna be late!
TAAAAAAAAAA.
p/s: Thanks, those who wished me goodbye and stuffs. :D It's nice to know people care. Yay thanks, I'll sooooo miss everyone & I'm sad about that! ):
Anyway! I'm only like, almost HALF-PACKED. Okay, ONLY, yo. Yeah, and I haven't dug out my sister's notes to bring. Which are placed high up there, (you know I'm short) & the friggin' chair doesn't help. Hmph. Plus! The clothes, nyah. I planned what to wear tomorrow already in the airport!
I'm not kidding when I said I would miss everyone. ):
There's Maths tomorrow, plus LUNCH! :D & dental appointment. AND more packing hehehe.
Okay, I'm done here. I'll update tomorrow, again! (:
I'm going to Heartland Mall in a bit to get more stuffs! Haha.
(Oh, and my sister said she's melting in Waterloo. O.O It's summer, I know but I thought everything's topsy turvy with the icebergs melting too fast and those shits?)
At least colder than Singapore, kan :D
Lafazkan cinta dari bibirmu
Ingin kudengar sekali lagi
Lafazkan dari hati tulus dan suci
Serahkan cinta abadi
Oh bisikan rindu nada nan syahdu
Pintaku yang terakhir darimu
Pintaku hanya satu
Usah kau berlalu
Yes, I said you wait one day. You wait until I pluck enough courage to end every single thing.
Including my life.
I still can manage this now, since it's not too extreme yet. I still can hold on. But I attempted once, twice. Thrice won't make a difference. I will, if you drive me to it.I had enough of your ego. Your blasts. Your anger. You.
So what, even if we're a family. So what, if you don't treat me as a human. So what, if you don't even respect me as your daughter. If you think you're the only one right, refusing to accept other opinions and ways. As if it'd hurt to go with someone else's way.
Though of course, there're more reasons to keep this life, however precious it is.
I think. I will seriously cry at the airport. I'm so scared to walk through that, that door. What if, what if something happens? I'd be alone. Like, my luggage? Like, this? That? OMG. There I go again, I should shut up but I'm seriously terrified.goddamned piano theory homework. ): Which I'll take AGES okay. And there're 2 weddings tomorrow, plus I have to attend Madrasah to collect the report book. AND of course the piano lesson of 1 and a half hours. NO TIME.
(CLICK TO ENLARGE, ANYHOOTS!)
Zub!; heeeeeeeeys darling! thanks for the messages; friendster, tag and sms, HAHA so sweet laah yooou! i miss you like big time. takecare sweets! ;D
I only remember the first lesson, Maths, and I was bored to death. Mdm Hee gave us Sec 1 questions for revision. We're practically struggling and were against time, what with rushing to her and submitting our answers immediately. Luckily twas group work. And guess what, it's Sec 1 N.A Maths. So obviously OUR own Math would be HORRIBLY TOUGHER! :/
Rest of the day was normal, BORING. Gaha. We had Choir practice for a short while after school, followed by Speech Day Rehearsal. A quick one, and we got the schedule for our practices and other thangs. I can't attend a number of practices plus the farewell party & handover ceremony! Since they're held next week! ): I'm so sad because of that. :/
Then Dinah, Raihana and I went to AMK Hub, for fun and ate prata! Went window shopping, window shopping and window shopping! (: 2nd time in a row, I've been there this week!
THURSDAY!
More lessons! Plus our report book, back! :S Okay I'm super glad I didn't fail any subjects, for overall of course, and that's somehow an aim! :D YAY. Ahh, I aim to get at least 73% percentage & No C's! :D Insya-Allah. I'll work hard, I will!!!
After school, I planned to go shopping at AMK Hub to get some things. My sister gave me a long list of stationery to get, which built up to 15 bucks. Yay, then I really wanted that cool brown top but saaaaaadly, twas a tad too large for me! ): So I didn't get it. We walked around but couldn't find the right top for me. Thanks Izyan for tagging along, I'm really sorry if I wasted your time! ):
Mom texted me if I bought the envelopes she asked for, & naturally, I'd forgotten all about it. So I went to Popular at Heartland Mall. I walked around, discovered that there're tons of shops selling super gorgeous tops. No, not affordable though. Hur. & goodness me, I'M SO DAMN SLOW I ACTUALLY JUST REALISED HEARTLAND MALL HAS P.D ZONE AFTER LIVING IN THIS AREA FOR LIKE A YEAR! Okay, sorry! HAHA. Super funny. 'Cause we went ot P.D Zone in AMK Hub and was fascinated by the affordable clothes. The one in Heartland Mall was like double of the size, and I didn't realise. O.O (Oh and Heartland Mall has E2 too. :P Haha only Yescom people'd get it! & some others.)
I went in Popular, got the required stuff and there was this attraction at the Secondary Two area. Where the assessment books are. I was like wow, cool I wanna do!! Yadayada.
Instead of spending the bucks Mom gave me to buy the top I wanted, I bought four assessment books.
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HEH. There's something called, erm. Early preparations? ;D
YAY. I'm so gonna bring them to Canada and do there. Hah! Sounds funny. (: So there're tons of homework yup yup! I'M SO SCREWED, I don't know if I can even find the time! :D
& TODAY!!!!
I swear today was such a superb day, the best I've had for donkey years.
Today was obviously Anderson's Sports Day. Twas super fun, with the duperb music and all! :D HAHA, poor Sar, got SUNG INTO by Nadz & I. ;D Can you keep up? & to add on to everything, 2/2 won in a number of races! YAY CONGRATS AND WELL DONE TO THOSE WHO TOOK PART!! :D
I took part in the one and only Telematch. Sounds lame, but IT'S FUN OKAY!! :D HAHA. I was super nervous, no idea why. Sarah & I were screaming we needed to peeeee so badly even after the telematch had started! XD I suck at hopping in the bag!! (; SO ANYWAY.
WE WON FIRST!
YAY. We won, amongst the lower sec. :D YAY CONGRATS THE TEN OF US! :D
That's not the best part though.
We didn't win the flag, though we'd been wanting and expecting! Congrats 2/8, anyhoots. But..
WE WON THE BEST CLASS AMONG THE LEVEL!!!!
WOOHOO. :D Doncha agree 2/2 rocks? :D Okay I'm just saying we won! 2nd year too. I think I've lost my voice from all the screaaaaaaaaming!
I boarded 72 with Ching Yee, Jia Le, Teck Chye, Apek, Vincent, Zi Jian, Min Yi, Su Xian, Sylvia, Jian Shen. :D Some small gathering in the bus. Tsk, public nuisance. Heh.
TIRED.
HUNGRY.
THIRSTY.
TIRED.
HEADACHE.
LONG LIST OF THINGS TO DO.
TIRED.
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I have not packed for Canada, believe it or not?
I'm leaving in what, 2 days? I count, from tomorrow. Perhaps 3. Same aaaaah. :S I haven't packed, I'm so unprepared. I AM SCARED. :/ To go. Since I'd be alone and everything. Ahhhhh, my sister and her friends faced some problems in the airport at Canada when the container containing their luggages split open, so they got the luggages only after waiting for hours. I'm so afraid it'd happen and worst thing is, I'D BE ALONE. D: I'd be crying like shit. HAHA.
Okay okay. I think I wanna pack now, I wanna practise my piano, finish up my theory homework. I wanna watch MARS VS VENUS on Channel 8, at 9. Since it's like the 2nd last time I would be able to watch it!! (: I LOVE THE SHOW. I have yet to do packing, too! And of course, I have maaaaaany things to do laaaaaah. :D YAY.
And I realised.
I realised.
How powerful the pretence's becoming.
That it is taking over our lives.And I cried.
Talentime finals. Quite fun, maybe. The music room was chilly, superrrrrr cold. We're freezing in there. My teeth were chattering! O.O Anyway the other dance group backed out, we're the only ones can! HOHO. So yes, results on Friday. Yay, the SUPER light trophies. (:
Today's such a happy day, I've finally cheered up. Like yay. Though Malay brought me down again since our summary was returned and according to my calculations, I failed by uhm. Okay, either 3 or 1 and a half marks. But YAY they're wrong. HAH HAH HAH. I had a glance of Cikgu's laptop and I discovered I passed by 3 marks. I WAS SO HAPPY when I was on the verge of crying already. My aim was to pass ALL the subjects. (: It's English now, left. I BETTER PASS IT.
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I. Have thus, promised myself I'd really really strive to work harder in the next semester. Due to my pathetic number of 3 disappointing A's. I was reading my archives and came across my New Year's Resolutions.
1. Listen attentively during lessons & absorb accordingly.
2. No more sleeping during ------- :D
3. Finish homework assigned on time! Like on the day itself or after.
4. Cut down on computer & television usage!!!! -WAY URGENT.
5. No more of mugging a day before a test!!
6. Mugging > Reading, NOT, reading > mugging!
7. Save up save up save up! - Umm after paying certain people back & buying presents for certain people. :S
8. Cut down on cellphone messages!
I discovered the only resolutions I fulfilled is. TWO. Okay I am pathetic. I get that. I fulfilled half of 1, okay. :P & I've been trying for 7 & 8, simply impossible. ): But I'll try harder. Erm, 3. I slacked a little OOPS OOPS. 4 is like a far cry! -.- 5. DON'T EVEN ASK. HAHA. :) Okay 6, perhaps, during exams period. But I'm not pretty sure.
So anyway, I promised myself, I'll keep my promise. I'll edit number 4 & 5.
4. Computer usage allowed only once in 3 days!
5. Mug, early. Like. Really. EARLY! To be damn prepared.
I will really really work hard to fulfill THOSE resolutions. HAH I will. So yes, allowed only once in 3 days, next time I'll blog would be like. FRIDAY! Yay. Mdm Hee even said if we slacked just a little more than required, we'd fail our next sem. Which is so friggin' crucial. I really need to do well.
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I'm leaving in exactly 6 days. Like, at around this time, I'd be going to the airport. And 5, counting from tomorrow. I'm not an inch prepared. I haven't packed a single crap. Haaaah. Oh, my sister gave me a whole long list of things from stationery to food, for her. -.= Hur, majority of my luggage would be filled of her stuffs. Heh.
Anyway I discovered I'd be able to attend Math make-up lesson on Monday. Only, at least better than nothing. I'd have to cramp that, and my dental appointment. Plus, I really wanna catch Shrek 3 before I leave. OMG I just found out that it shows only on 31 MAY. AAAARGH. ARGH. ): Hmph fine. I'll go out shopping then. Or something. Anything, before I leave.
Oh, speaking of shopping! After the talentime, the 6 of us went to AMK Hub (amkhub, pronounced :P) because of my ridiculous but reasonable okay! Cravings for either a belt, bag, shoe, wallet, top or jeans. I JUST NEEDED TO GET SOMETHING OR I'D GO CRAZY. & I got a pretty belt. :D Though I was bucks poorer. ): Nevermind! HAH I love my golden, whitish, brownish belt. :D Okay there're three colours. And, it's like, a chain. But it's not. Cloth-y? HMM. I can't explain. They're in separate colours, though. :D I LIKE.
Funky Mom's so nice, she offered to take leave on a certain day this week to go shopping with me and get those things (stated above) I want. :D LOVES! Oh, and she didn't scold me for my results! (Which actually made me feel guiltier but relieved, I was soooooo afraid!) She was simply advising me in a very nice way, and made me promise to read the malay papers everyday, this and that. Which I don't mind at all. (: I love you Mom! :D
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Okay okay. I'd get real busy during June holidays, my comp's doing weird things, I better get off before this whole post gets deleted.
I won't disappoint you anymore.We talked. We talked. PROPERLY. :D OMG! & like you said, after 7 months XD
Camwhoring, much? We got bored after the Games. Like what's new? (: Nadz rocks.
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I am so depressed over my results. Of course, it's only ME to blame, like duh. That's why. I did mug, even if I used the computer, I made sure I mugged first. I don't get it, damn it. Perhaps I didn't put in as much effort into some subjects than others but. I didn't expect horrible results. At all. Hur. I'm so afraid to tell Mom & Dad. I don't know how.
I was so tired, after the return of 6 papers & more to go, what with disappointment all over again and again. No crying over spilt milk, okay fine. But sorry I couldn't help it, Science was the last straw after depressing Malay, the tears just trickled down. Thanks Nadz, and Faath. (: Sitting right at the back has maaaaany advantages. To add on with great people around me. Yay. I love our sitting arrangement. I hope it lasts till school ends.
I loathe the results of my papers. I'm merely satisfied with the overall of the subjects. I only improved in English (D7toB-), Math (B3-A2) and History (failedpaper-A1). Okay D&T, I remained. Malay was OMG shitty. I got CRAP. Only 2 people passed the freaking paper 2, or 1? I'm not sure. But Faath's always the expert. (: I have to achieve at least I don't know, this impossible set of marks for summary just to get an effing PASS. OhmyGod. I've never failed Malay, I DON'T WANT TO FAIL MALAY. ): I was so sad gah. Okay 2 others too. D: Sigh.
Screw my SA1. I swore to myself I'd do well for SA2. Because I'm just so disappointed with myself, and I know how much my parents will be disappointed in me. And that, I hate so much. That would be the reason the tears would flow. The regret. But once again,
NO CRYING OVER SPILT MILK.
So what can I do?
Move on.
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I deserve those scoldings to come.
I suck.
I am so sorry.
[ ] You have ran into a glass/screendoor.
(I know of someone who ran into mine, though! :P)
[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[X] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[X] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[X] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
(OMG I'M SO FREAKING DUMB!! I seriously didn't know -.- kick me, someone!)
[X] You just sang them to make sure.
(HEH?!)
[ ] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[ ] You have caught yourself drooling.
[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ]You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[ ] You use your fingers to do simplemath.
[ ]You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[X] You've looked all over for something and realised it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.
[X]You break a lot of things.
[X]You tilt your head when you're confused.
[ ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[ ] You dont know what "um" means.
[X] You say "what" and "huh" alot.
[ ] You used a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.
Total: 11
NOW, take that number and multiply it by 4.
Thus.
"I'm 44% RETARDED"
YAY. I'm still sane. :D
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Anyway! Results tomorrow aaaaaah I'm scared can can can. :S Nervous, more like. Hmm. Math, first period. English, Literature. Malay! Science!!! AAAH. Okay.
(:
I'm fine. I'm sane, I'm happy! YAY. :D
I love conversations (:
Okay done here. Taaaa!
JANUARI - GLEN FREDLY
I'll go and play some lame games now.
Thanks. (: I've cheered up.
Much.
Labels: dia, januari, jiwang, thankyous
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ZUBAIDAH! :D I know the arrangement of the photos suck but all my favourite people are in it! :D They look small, but hey. It's the desktop. Obviously they'll appear bigggg. :D - So. A list.
Yay, I love you, much much much! (: Have a great day ahead and may Allah bless you, lady! You're forteeeeen, a year older and wiser. More gorgeous! (: YAY. Loves! :D
(eh you should be honoured LOL my title's about you. HAHA kidding. :D)
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I couldn't stand the huge photo of me at the desktop so I created a new banner. :D Yay.
Shucks.
Bye!
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Labels: birthday, desktop, i need dia, stupid things, tears and lies, things to do, unexplainable things